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This is my personal blog! I keep website updates on the home page, and you will most likely not find those here. If you decide to read, keep in mind that, as much as I try to keep the tone professional-casual and leave out super personal details, this is basically my journal. Expect a lot of rambling and non-sequitors. Also I type these directly into the HTML editor, which does not have spellcheck. I am doing my best.
4/8/26, 1:50 pm
Wow it’s been a second since I made a post, I've been ruminating on a couple topics, and just had long enough to put them into full sentences. Happy April as well!
I figured out a couple days ago that I would actually not thrive if I kept to biochemistry, like I was expecting. This revelation came at an extremely inconvenient time, as I am currently taking four classes and two multi-hour labs for this field of study. It’s safe to say that my motivation for classes reached a historic low sometime in the past week, which kind of sucks because I like my professors and feel like I’m disrespecting them by not enjoying their classes.
Fortunately, I haven’t just been angsting and rotting for the past week, because I learned that you only need a Master’s degree to teach university-level theater (!!!!!!!!) and I’m going to be getting a theater Bachelor’s degree in about a year, so I could be teaching university in like 3 years if I lock in. I have to say, quite possibly the most tempted I’ve been by the prospect of more school. As of right now, I want to take at least one break year before my next school, so I have time to decide.
Also, my medieval phase is back in full force. I sometimes feel like my interests are like tides because they go in and out in turn. Anyways I am nearly at historic high tide for being into medieval clothing. Waiting very very very patiently for my tax return to come in so I can spend all of it on leather and leatherworking tools so that I can learn how to make proper shoes, belts, and scabbards (as opposed to my current pleather shoes, thrifted belt, and fabric-and-cardstock scabbard). I’m currently deep in the throes of trying to lean how to tablet weave (which the kitties are helping me with very much, whether I want them to or not). If all goes well, I’ll be taking a weaving class next year as well. I am so normal about fiber arts and can be trusted around yarns.
Currently getting back into sea shanties as well. I think it’s funny that I like sea shanties so much because I have nearly no interest in pirates (or ship culture in general from that era) otherwise. Sea shanties (and folk songs that keep getting lumped in with them) are just that good lol!
3/31/26, 4:00 pm
I've been thinking a lot lately about my relationship to gender. I think that as I grow up and get more experiences, I get more comfortable with being percieved as a woman. I think that goes hand-in-hand with the whole 'being bigender' thing. It's kind of weird to be honest. Like I'm not comfortable being only a man and I'm even more uncofortable with being only a woman. I wish that our society was more accepting of people that don't fit the man/woman binary. I think that I would have realized this much sooner and had a much easier time overall if so.
As is, I still don't like talking about being bigender in real life. I guess that I have some "passing privlage" or at least a sort of "people don't seem to like thinking about gender around me" and I don't like being the one to break the silence on that. I would rather let people make assumptions about me, even if they're wrong.
I don't know what I want my future to hold, in regards to gender. I want to be a schoolteacher, which requires one to be refered to by an honorific. English, unfortunately, does not have any super widly-recognized gender neutral honorifics. I don't really want to be gender neutral either. I am a man and I am a woman. It could be fun to switch up presentation every time I get a new job. Like I'm masc at college rn, so I could try being fem at my next schooling thing. IDK, I just know that I don't want to wear button-downs for the rest of my life. I straight up might not have been bigender if we lived in a society with a decently fun men's dresscode. But the boringness HAD to make me question things. Sigh.
Anyways, I don't know what I'm going to do but whatever happens happens :)
3/29/26, 12:15 pm
Today, I found a cool looking forum site! I'm probably going to lurk for a couple days before I apply for an account, but I'm having fun so far. They even have guilds for various things I'm interested in! They do have a focus on art (which I only really do for myself o_o) so I'll have to really look and see if it's the forum site for me. I am trying to get into pixel art though. It seems fun & I found a freeware pixel art program, which looks promising. Mostly downloaded it bc I want to rely on my phone (has my fave art program) less.
I'm also settling in more to the house. There's a nice backyard and garden, but I'm waiting for the weather to get better before I go out to see it. I would like to have a nice garden and chilling space like that when I move out. Hopefully the house market and all that will allow it.
3/28/26, 10:20 pm
Just thought about homestuck for the first time in a while. I need to get back into classpecting. It's so fun. And subjective. But mostly fun. I think that I am going to spend the rest of my day classpecting the cats. Soot is so very prospit, while Cinder is so very derse. I have not gotten a read on their classpects or Smokey's anything.
3/28/26, 3:40 pm
I'm currently housesitting for my grandparents, which is really weird because I am going to be living here next year. They just set up my room a little early. So I am basically just home alone in a house that I don't really live in yet. They do have 3 cute little cats though. They are Cinder (old lady, grey tabby, a little rotund), Smokey (little boy, longhaired ticked grey tabby, big), and Soot (little girl, black shorthair, tiny). Pictures below are in their respective order.
They also left me with 2 massive containers of strawberries. I am not a big fan of strawberries to be completely honest. So I just cut the tops off the pretty looking ones and froze them and am currently boiling down the ugly mushy ones to make some weird kind of jam. I've added about half a cup of sugar already and will probably have to add more. The strawberries have been breaking down well, though.
I can't believe that I have to go back to being in Class Mode in just 2 sleeps. And I have to start waking up 30 mins earlier because I am currently 30 minutes from campus by bike. Kinda sucks. I'll live though. I just have to remember to grab my analogue clock from my college apartment (once it reopens) so it would be a lot harder to oversleep my alarms. It's really nice to have a non-phone alarm and I am going to miss it on Monday, before I go to pick it up.
3/28/26, 10:25 am
My bf left today :( I am going to miss xiem so much but I had so much fun while they were here. Looking forward to the day that we won't have to go back to our own states and can just live together :). I'm currently trying to figure out what kind of herbs we could grow in our house once we move in together. I would like to grow mint becasue i like the flavor. However, it is mint and I would be so scared of it getting out. We would be moving to a higher hardiness zone than I currently live in, so we might be able to have some more fun plants.
I had REALLY good indian food yesterday (and today for breakfast!). Straight up divine palek paneer. It's a good ~15 min drive out to the restauraunt and a little more expensive than I would normally go for but it was so good. And also so much food. I still have a full dinner left after having it for lunch and breakfast. So it's not a bad price for a full day's worth of food. Might go back sometime soon bc man it was great.
Anyways, I'm considering making blinkies now. Would be fun tbh. I'll add that to my new ETC section if I end up doing that. I'm making some templates rn to make that easier. I do also have some images that I would be using for the bases. Probably going to be a couple weeks on those because I have to get back in the school mood (yay...).
Cookie clicker game is going strong. I just hit my 1st trillion and am probably going to wait until I get at least one more chip before I ascend.
2/22/26, 10:45 pm
my boyfriend is here :) xier here :) with me :) spent the day together and i love him :) also got to see my dogs today! it was almost exactly one year ago now that we got the puppies! theyve come so far and gotten so evil since then. also we're watching one piece (g8 arc) right now and i have to say. i am kinda sad that i stopped reading in skypia. this is lowkey good tbh.
made tacos for dinner bc my family had leftover mexican sides in the fridge. i need to stop cooking for an entire army lmao im pretty sure that we had more leftovers than we ate. which is not a bad thing overall tbh.
bf is in the shower rn. i miss thon.
Also my cookie clicker game is going well still. I'm about 50% of the way to the first ascention bonus and getting there faster. Last time I did the math, I had about 9 hours of game-running time to go until I got to the goal. I am hoping to get it done asap, but logically I'm aiming for within the next 3 days.
3/21/26, 6:45 pm
I'm missing my bf a lot right now :( They're currently actively on a plane to come visit me. However because he's on a plane, I cannot talk to him. And there's just about nothing that I can really do unti he gets here. Like I've cleaned my whole appartment. Twice. And I've fully packed up (besides my laptop and a few toiletries). Like I guess I could go on a walk? Maybe go down to the park and chill? But i lowkey want to be in a place with wifi so I can work on this site when I feel like it. Sigh. It is just something that I'm dealing with I suppose.
Anyways my cookie clicker game is going pretty good. I've got a handful of the buildings to level 1 and am running a couple gds in the pantheon that are getting me some extra cookies. I still am trying to figure out if there's a way to display my score in this site. Most likely not but yknow. Would be fun.
3/20/26, 7:50 pm
Today was really good actually. I just had a couple classes and was able to start my next project for my job! I'm on spring break now. I know that I should be packing my things and cleaning my apartment because I'm leaving tomorrow, but I really don't want to rn. I guess I'll get to it once the inspiration strikes. Speaking of the inspiration, I've been having fun with messing with the CSS today. I got really lucky and only had to clear cashe a couple times. But now I have a sidebar!!! Very exciting!
Also I used up the last of my carmel syrup today. Incredibly sad. I'll get some more next time I go to the store but I'm still so sad. I was looking forwards to having some carmel flavored coffee tomorrow. Whatever I suppose.
I wonder if there's a way to put an RSS feed (or something like it) of my cookie clicker score into this site. I really don't think that there is, but it would be super cool if I could. It might be my next biggest obsession tbh
3/20/26, 5:35 pm
LOSING MY MIND AT THE 8th EP RN. CAINE MENTIONED IHNMAIMS??????????????? IN A MUSICAL NUMBER??????? WITH TAP DANCING??????????????? also im loving the group losing it session. Was it ragetha that said "the only thing that's holding him back is that he likes us"? bc that was prophetic.
POMNI WITH THE BUCKET SAVE??????? HELLO???????? KINGER MY GOAT????????????? also jax's "what is going on rn" is so real. lore dump episode ftw????????
kinger (with a bucket on his head)(in darkness)(cannot see): i see........
also jax immedieately having a mental breakdown bc it's not just a game is so real. to me. my depersonalizing king.
AND POMNI GOING BACK INTO THE FAKE EXIT FOR THE COMPUTER????? SHES SO GOATED??????? also i am so sure that this ep is setting us up for heartbreak please let me be wrong
"...wheres kinger..." MY SPINE JUST LEPT OUT OF MY BODY
WAIT NO GO BACK THIS IS JUST IHNMAIMS NOW STOP UNDO
also caine is actually (PEELED JAX???????? THIS IS SO SCARY WHY AM I LAUGHING) such a good antagonist,,, and the little 'wait...' did he die???????????????? hello???????????????? HELLO????????????????????
AND THAT WAS IT?????????? WAHT?????????????????????????? im watching until this is over bc like what if this is a fakeout ending
GIRL WHAT
HUH
3/19/26, 8:30 pm
OML I forgot how much working with CSS SUCKS... I had to empty cashe so many more times than I could even hope to remember... However that was very much needed lmao. I enjoy the new look a lot better. I'm considering rounding the corners of the sections a little bit, but I also really like the sharp cornered look. Sigh. I really don't want to finangle with the CSS any more today, so I'll have to think about this some other time.
3/19/26, 5:45 pm
I had a really chill day today overall, all things considered. I'm still struggling to finish an assignment that I have due tomorrow, but I've finished a lot of other things that I had due in the meantime, so I suppose it's mostly alright. I am almost entirely done, though, and will probably actually finish it on time :).
One thing that did happen today was that I may have broke physics a little. I am taking a first-year level physics class right now and it's alright but the lab is crazy. I manage to break something by accident every time I go there. Last week, I manged to turn a tube of jello into a battery??? Like that should not be possible I think? Anyways this week, I managed to get a magnet to work in such a way where if you held it up and down, the north would be the north and the south the south. However, if you held it sideways, the north would be the south and the south the north. I have no clue as to how I did that, but the professor didn't ask me about it so I managed to leave early.
Also update on cookie clicker. I hit the prestige button but I did it too early. Now I have gained nothing and must regrow my cookie empire completely from scratch. Such is life, I suppose?
3/18/2026, 10:00 pm
I had 4 days of practically weekend with the times that I had to get up. But now I'm back on that 'waking up at 7 am' grindset. Sigh. I am pretty sure that I want to be a teacher becasue I enjoy teaching and want to get a good job with the least amount of extra schooling posible. But I am going to hate the early mornings for my entire life.
Also I lost all of my pencils today. But I have FOUR sharpies and a fountain pen. Only packing the essentials I guess??????
I've been playing cookie clicker for a couple days now (all hail idle games) and I'm kind of wondering if I imagined the eldrich horrors when I played it as a kid. It's being surprisingly normal. I'm at about 70 billion cookies and it's not even letting me sacrifice the grandmothers.
Also, another unrealted thing, I figured out what I want to do overall with this site! Or at least, I have a goal that I'm vauely working towards now. *pops confetti* yippee!
AND I finally managed to safely stretch my ears up another size! It's been months! One of my ears is feeling a little tight, but I'm pretty sure it's just a little bit of normal post-stetching sensations. If I still feel it in the morning, I'll go back down a size.
3/17/2026, 3:00 pm
Hi everyone and welcome to my New Blog! I made this (and decided to start sprucing up this site in general) because I made the choice to quit social media for good!!!!!!!!!!! It is really silly to me that I've decided to make a blog, however, because it reqires me to like. speak and have original ideas and such. I only ever used social media for looking at other people's stuff to be completely honest.
Anyways I'm excited to have a place where I can just talk about things that I like without the worry of people being able to do anything about it. I won't kid myself by saying that nobody will see it (everything on the internet is on the internet forever after all) but I am enjoying the lack of expectations that a peronal website brings.
Anyways I made this blog exclusively to procrastinate on homework so IIIIIII should get back into doing that. BYE!
